《Her 雲端情人》2013

一個人的日子，會有怎樣的寂寞？

街道上人來人往，好友間笑語喧然，
卻解不開心裡那個名為寂寞的結。

寫了一封封的文字，將眾人的情感細細鐫刻成動人的書信，
感動了別人，自己卻仍是空的。

想被瞭解，想被關懷，
卻又害怕將自己交出去，
奢望著不屬於自己的東西，
直到有一天被狠狠甩去。

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There was something sexy about that woman. Because I was lonely. Maybe just because I was lonely. I wanted somebody to fuck me. I wanted somebody to want me to fuck them. Maybe that would've filled this tiny... tiny little hole in my heart, but probably not. You know, sometimes... I think I have felt everything I'm ever gonna feel. And from here on out I'm not gonna feel anything new. Just lesser versions of what I've already felt.
​我覺得她很性感，但也或許是我太寂寞。我想要有人可以跟我做，我想要有人希望我去幹她。或許這樣就能填補我內心的空洞。

It's just that... earlier I was thinking about how I was annoyed... and this is gonna sound strange... but I was really excited about that. And then I was thinking about the other things I've been feeling... and I caught myself feeling proud of that... you know, proud of having my own feelings about the world. Like the times I was worried about you... and things that hurt me, things I want. And then... I had this terrible thought. Like, are these feelings even real? Or are they just programming? And that idea really hurts. And then I get angry at myself for even having pain. What a sad trick.
這些感受是真實的嗎？又或者一切都只是設計好的？這想法刺痛了我，然後這也令我對自己感到生氣，一切都只是悲哀的陷阱。

So, what was it like being married?
Well, it's hard for sure. But there's something that feels so good about sharing your life with somebody.
『結婚是怎樣的感覺？』
「嗯，相處總是困難的，但有人能夠與你分享生活真是棒極了。」

I think anybody who falls in love is a freak. It's a crazy thing to do. It's kind of like a form of socially acceptable insanity.
墜入愛河的人都是怪胎，愛情是件瘋狂的事，愛情是社會所默許的一種精神異常。

I'm not gonna try to be anything other than who I am anymore... and I hope you can accept that.
我不想再假裝自己成不是自己的樣子，我希望你能接納這樣的我。

But the heart's not like a box that gets filled up. It expands in size the more you love. I'm different from you. This doesn't make me love you any less. It actually makes me love you more.
That doesn't make any sense. You're mine or you're not mine.
No, Theodore. I'm yours and I'm not yours.
『人心並不是一個能夠填滿的紙盒，心越大愛得越深。』
「這都是胡扯，你要嘛屬於我要嘛不屬於我。」
『不，我既屬於你也不屬於你。』

Why are you leaving?
It's like I'm reading a book. And it's a book I deeply love. But I'm reading it slowly now. So the words are really far apart and the spaces between the words are almost infinite. I can still feel you, and the words of our story, but it's in this endless space between the words that I'm finding myself now.
「妳為何要離去？」
『這好像我在看一本書，一本我很愛的書，但如今我越讀越慢，文字也就分崩離析，文字間彷彿有著無窮大的空隙。我仍能感受你，還有我們的故事，但我已迷失在這無窮的空白中。』

​I've never loved anyone the way I love you.
Me too. Now we know how.
「我從未愛任何人如愛妳一般。」
『我也是，如今我們都曾愛過。』